Happy 18th anniversary to my Mom and Dad! However, we’re not talking wedding anniversary. On Friday, April 2, 1999 at 4:30pm I moved in with my parents. Yes, I know the exact time. I’m neurotic like that.
I have several faint scars on my arm from self-inflicting pain. It’s a dark and lonely place being a cutter. People who cut (or use to cut) have their own reasons. Here is my path and how I overcame.
This was me before I moved in with my aunt and uncle. Right before the abuse started.
Shalom, shalom. It feels like I was in Israel a couple weeks ago, but I guess it’s been almost three months now. What did happen a few weeks ago was the Jewish Federation asked me to speak about my Birthright experience at a big fundraiser. I thought I’d share it here with you as well. [Read more…]
*Disclaimer: This is in no way a political post or me forcing my views on anyone. Just me venting my thoughts and reactions. [Read more…]
Twenty-one years ago, today, my Grandma T died from ovarian cancer at age 51. I cannot even begin to express how much I miss her… [Read more…]
I want to say Happy belated Mother’s Day to all the Moms out there. I hope every day you are shown appreciation, not just this day.
A couple of weeks ago was pretty scary as I experienced my first “adult” flashback. Let me define flashback: A sudden and disturbing vivid memory of an event in the past, typically as the result of psychological trauma (or taking LSD). I say “adult” because I faced flashbacks in high school. I swore I heard my aunt’s voice and it terrified me. That was the start of my cutting and suicidal thoughts. I was quickly diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), which eventually led me to an evaluation center and live-in facility for therapy. I’ve had a few since then, but mostly due to intoxication and no self-control (more like panic attacks). However, this was entirely different. [Read more…]
Thank you to all my family, friends, and friends of friends for the love I received on my surviving childhood abuse blog write up for Ugly Duckling Diaries. The amount of feedback and support was overwhelming, in a very amazing and powerful way. If you missed it, check out my story on Ugly Duckling Diaries here or read below to catch up.
UDD creator Tania reached out to me via Instagram asking to feature my story. I cannot thank her enough for giving me the push I needed to finally create my own website. For years I’ve talked about creating this space and Tania reaching out, along with all the support and love I received, only solidified that I needed to start. And ASAP! [Read more…]